ME

In ages, this is the first time, I have felt that I can see me, the person I lost some while back. The clarity in my head makes me happy, I know what I want and the fear has lessened. I feel that I know what I want and who I am and the confusion of the few days back is gone.
Its like when after it pours and the sun comes out, the way the clouds part to give way to clear blue sky, that is indeed my brain right now. For a few years now, there were many dark clouds in my head and I worked with a few hours of clarity, but unfortunately that was not enough. Today, I woke up in the evening and found the clouds have lifted. And the sun is bright, shinny and warm. I welcome this feeling with open arms, even if I wonder how did I finally achieve this.
The fear is that the clouds will return, the uncertainty will return, and with that the excuses I hide behind will return, but I hope that even in that darkness I can hold on to the strength I have found in this hour of clarity.
For now, I am not lost anymore. I have found me and I am ready to embrace me. Welcome the real me.